Psalm 5 - One A Week Psalm Project
One A Week Psalm Project
I am the one who sighs
I am the one who cries for help
I am the one who waits in expectation
I am the one who does evil
I am the one who lies
I am the one who is bloodthirsty
I am the one who is deceitful
I am the one who cannot be trusted
I am the one who is filled with destruction
I am the one who has rebelled
I am the one who is guilty.
I am the one who takes refuge in you
I am the one who hopes to sing for joy
I am the one who is protected
I am the one who loves your name
I am the one who rejoices is God’s name
I am the one who is blessed with righteousness
I am the one who is surrounded with favour as with a shield.
Thoughts I’ve had this week:
I am not sure if this project is making anything clearer or even making me a better artist. But maybe I am becoming more accepting of not understanding and more willing to find out what I can know.
I am quite frustrated by the challenging parts; the weakness of humanity and the anger of God. I don’t want to read about the wrath and the anger. Apparently an understanding of wrath and anger are not yet well integrated into my theology. And really, while I do feel quite protected from the wrath and anger of the world and God given the life I have had, I do not understand why me and not others? Why do other suffer in such terrible ways?
What is your shield protecting us from if the world is still the way that it is?
And yet I know that most of the world’s suffering is from our hand, not yours. But your hand reaches out and touches some people but not others. I don’t understand how or why that happens.
I am sick.
When I am sick it is difficult to be positive; to take things in my stride; to be content; to be satisfied with life just being ok. I want to retreat back into myself. I don’t feel that the verses have made much of an impact and my creativity has been low. As I lay in bed, I have been able to do just a few stints of slowly sewing together a paper sculpture I am making. Being sick always makes me wonder if I have been putting my energy in the right places.