Poems & Prayers
in the lead up to my exhibition
I feel deflated
my enthusiasm constantly dripping away
I feel tired from pushing up against the bold brick wall that surrounds me
I feel lost, uncertain why the steps I thought
were forward are now behind, heading in
the wrong direction
I feel un-lit, the fire inside barely smoking
I feel disappointed, defeated
I ask these feelings be moved outside of myself.
I ask they be replaced, rejected, restored
I do not wish to gain more information
or be given new words to interpret.
I wish to experience what information
I already have
to process that which I have already heard.
To be present
to be open